Forward Motion

So. I am at work and pissy and tired and the more pissy I get, the more tired I am. This is not the worst day in the world. Just because some nurse treated me like sh!% doesn't mean I have the right to sulk and whine the rest of the night. I need to snap out of this. There are bigger problems out there! Poor Lori is going through some tough sh!% and I have the nerve to whine about my stupid day. How crappy is that??? Her Dad is dying and I am a sh!%head!! I am stressed. I need to calm down. I need to not be a selfish dork. I continue to fly off the handle for stupid crap. It actually scares me sometimes how mad I can get. I hate anger. :) I think it's a stupid waste of time - yet I still get mad. I just need to calm down, get my head together, and LET IT GO!!!!!!!!!!

So. I'm a little better now - thanks!! I got up and walked around a little bit. That helped. So did looking for the Forward Motion video for the link! They so rock!! It's been an interesting day at work and I have denied pampering myself for the last couple weeks. I notice that I am much more balanced when I take that time for myself to do something I want instead of always living in survival mode. I think it is a way of punishing myself for stupid things. I didn't work any overtime for about two weeks and now I can't pay all my bills - so let's make myself more miserable by not being nice to myself!! Sounds like a great idea! Then, I pull myself out of my funk and realize what a dork I'm being. I plan to do better next time and trust me when I say plan - I make lists and study and prepare! Then I get mad - and everything goes out the window. I struggle with forward motion. Anybody else? Or is it just me ;)

P.S. I actually spelled everything correctly! Yeah me!