DDR and afn!

How do you keep an anti-sport, lazy, video game addict from having to spend money on bigger clothes every year? Dance Dance Revolution Extreme 2 people. That is the answer! I am officially obsessed. Two weeks ago, the most strenuous activity I participated in was walking from the cafeteria to my desk; even then I would be out of breath. I have been playing this game for an average of 2 hours a day since it arrived (2 weeks ago) and every muscle in my body aches! It’s wonderful! Finally, an exercise program for nerdy gamers! I am excited. My roommate, on the other hand, just shakes her head at me. Yet another reminder of how so very different we are :)

My mother is supposedly coming down this weekend. I am trying not to get excited. My mother taught me many great things in life: love the earth, love thy neighbor, stand up for what is right. Unfortunately, she also taught me to be at least 15 minutes late for everything, speak before you think, and rarely follow through on your word. She means well, she truly does. The last time we made plans, we started out with “I’m coming to spend the weekend with you.” That slowly progressed to (or regressed to, rather) “Ok, I’m going to stay at your place on Saturday.” This eventually became, “I’m stopping by sometime on Saturday.” The whole visit lasted about 15 minutes. Or less. This is not unusual. Despite my intense determination not to inherit this habit, my grandmother has so eloquently pointed out the opposite. I am my mother’s daughter. I am trying to correct the situation. Now, I just refuse to commit to anything until the last minute. I’m not so sure that is a better attitude (in fact, I’m sure it’s not!), but I am hoping it will help. If I can discipline myself to stick to last minute decisions, with a bit of luck, that will build my stamina when it comes to the long term commitments. Then, maybe, just maybe, I can teach my mother something for a change. That sounded very ungrateful. I’ll have to post my English paper and that will help explain things!

Ok Miss Lori, I have posted! I need to study the central nervous system now, so ttfn. Actually, I think I prefer afn. Adieu for now!

Phat Girlz

Ok, so it's not normally my kind of movie, but it happens to now be a favorite of mine! It's about a fat woman who learns to love herself (and her hot African man!!). I love the premise. I love the emotion. I love the music!! I think you have to be a fat woman to appreciate the movie fully. The first time I saw it, Craig rented it for me. Now, for those of you who don't know (as if anyone but Lori actually reads this blog), Craig is my boyfriend. He's an African man (Durban, South Africa to be exact) who likes big women and speaks 7 different languages. I love him - teehee!! - but at first I had a really hard time understanding that he likes me big. He wanted me to watch the movie as a way of explaining to me that he grew up in a culture that rejoiced over fat women. As the whitest Iowa girl in the United States, I could not fathom this idea. Now, I love it ;) I only gave it 9 stars on IMDb, however, because all the men in the movie have six-pack abs. Sorry, girls. I like my men big, too. Muscles are not my thing. Strong, yes, bulging muscles, ew.

Maybe I'll figure out how to put the pic on later. I'm still trying to figure out the link thing :)

The Winter Blues

I see the sun twice a week. Saturday afternoons and Monday mornings. (Driving to work doesn't count. I'm always in the car and in a hurry, so all I notice about it is that it is in my eyes.) I need sun time. It's driving me crazy. So here's my schedule:

Monday

Wake 9AM

run errands in the AM since things are actually open

Anatomy 4-6

do homework

Work 1030 PM-7AM

Tuesday

Wake 5PM

Work 630PM-7AM

Wednesday

Wake 2PM

Anatomy 4-6

Work 630PM-7Am

Thursday

Wake 5PM

Work 630PM-3AM

Friday

Wake 9AM

Work 1030AM-11PM

Saturday

Wake 7AM

English Comp. 8AM-Noon

Laundry, run more errands, clean apartment (or nap:)

Sunday

Wake 9AM

Work 1030AM-11PM

Then it starts all over again.

I'm tired. I'm crabby. I'm cold. I need a day in the sun, damn it!

Going to Lori's last week was awesome. I needed to get away after six weeks of monotony. Unfortunately, when I got back, my contentment-o-meter is way out of whack. I know that what I am doing is good. I am actually working towards good things; I am paying off debts and keeping up with the game (not to be confused with staying ahead :), and working towards a degree. This idea is great, and they are both things I sincerely want to accomplish! It seems that there are some times, though, that the idea, the goal, gets lost in a fog of fatigue, selfish desires, and the Starbucks it takes to get me through it all. Lately, the fog has been all-consuming. So here I am, whining. Online even! The funny thing is, about the time I whine about it, I start to regain focus. Maybe it's just an "admitting you have a problem is the first step to a cure" scenario. I sure hope so. I am not a big fan of the winter blues. I think tomorrow I will buy some of those natural light-light bulbs. I'll let you know if they help!

Audrey Dearest

I am a huge Audrey Hepburn fan. I am actually watching A Roman Holiday right now! As I have completely lost my ability to focus on one thing at a time, I am also blogging for the first time in months. Lori will be happy!! -Oh! Oh! I love this part!- The one where she plays with her shoe and has to flip it around under her dress while still looking incredibly elegant! She rocks! I was so excited when I got this movie (e-bay 5.00!) and tore it open to show Brenda (the roommate).

"Well," she said, not quite as enthusiastic as me, "you won't have to mark that one. Everybody will know whose movie that one is. Is that black and white? Are you shitting me?" She shook her head and continued reading her People (or some such) magazine. No idea what she's missing out on.

We went out tonight with a few friends of mine from work. I don't know why I continue to do this. I am such a home-body. I would rather be cleaning. Seriously. Or maybe doing homework. I have much more fun learning than I do sitting in a loud, crowded bar, straining to talk about nothing important, with people I don't have much in common with. For some reason, it sounded fun earlier in the night. Brenda was bored out of her mind, since she knew nobody and hates to listen to people talk about Mercy (the hospital where I work).

"I just don't get it. Why would you want to talk about work when you're not there. Aren't we going out to forget about working for a while??"

So now she's in bed, and I can watch my AMAZING movie instead of cleaning. I suppose I could be doing that instead of this. Or, I could make something to eat and think about how I should be cleaning my apartment while I'm at work all day tomorrow. When I'm there I want to be home, when I'm home I would rather be at work. Someone needs to work on their state of contentment! *innocent little smile!!!*

So that's it today. So far, while blogging, I have thought of my Wal-Mart list, the dishes, how I need to get up early to go to the laundry mat, and how I need to visit my Dad again soon. Wow, that's 6 things at once. Crap. Only 5. I'm going to have to back the movie up a bit.