So it's been a while....

I could make excuses - my internet at home is too slow, i was too busy and then sick, I'm lazy. Whatever.

Lots of stuff has happened in the last week that I could talk about. I told so many people all that happened that I am really bored of talking about it now. I have been listening to the last Harry Potter book on CD for the last week. I only have a few chapters left. A nurse at work let me borrow her MP3's of Harry Potter so I could put them on my IPOD-knockoff and they wouldn't convert. And they won't play on my CD players, so here I am - stuck at my computer with headphones on crying because Hagrid just got carried away in a storm of giant spiders. My roommate is definitely NOT interested in the book, so I try not to subject her to it while she is home. Now it's all I can think about. That drives me nuts. I love getting into a book - it takes a lot for me to take the time to actually delve in - but it makes me crazy when I don't have the time to finish it. It'll be Thursday at the earliest before I can get back to it. I have to get groceries this morning before I end up eating Brenda's food and getting more sick than I am now! I can't put it off anymore. That, and I need to renew my car registration before I get a ticket. It's been only by the grace of God I've not had one thus far.

The last book I read was When the Heart Cries by Cindy Woodsmall. VERY good book. I'm recommending it to everyone I know (and to those of you I don't know!). I read the first two chapters and it hit me hard enough that I had to put it down for about 6 months. If you read it - you'll understand. I read the rest of it in one night. I couldn't put it down. The end of the book left me wanting more, so I googled the author. It is the first of 3 and the second one isn't released until September 4th. The third comes out in 2008. Had I known this - I wouldn't have finished reading the book for at least another year. It's been 2 months now and my excitement has not diminished one bit!

I had forgotten how wonderful reading is. I love to learn and I read for that purpose quite often, but it had been a long time since I had just read for pure enjoyment. I missed it. At one time I would have shunned the Harry Potter books and told you all you were going to hell for reading them. Now I can't get enough. That's another whole subject that I am just WAY too tired to get into.

Just a short note to the other bloggers I read about - thanks. I enjoy reading them. One of these days I'll take the time to discuss things with you - but I wouldn't hold your breath!

By the way....

Only 1.5 hours left!

Four and a half hours till a 4 DAY WEEKEND!!!!!!!

How exciting is that?!?! By the time I am done with this blog it'll be less! ok - so now it's only 2 hrs and 15 minutes - i told you so! Man how time flies!! ;) so. my dad called me tonight on my lunch break - like we always do - and he was in a fabulous mood! I am so excited! It's pretty rare to find that with him. So now I am in a fabulous mood! Smile - you just might make someones day! He is finally getting of 12 hour shifts tomorrow. He's been working five 12 hour shifts a week on nights and every third weekend on days. He hates it! He kept saying - "I can finally have a life again!" He likes his job - his best friend is his boss - but he hates nights and especially the hours he's been working. I am very excited for him - he can do paintball games before the end of summer! Yes, my 50-some-year-old Dad loves to go paint balling. Not sure that's an actual word...anyway.

My caffeine is FINALLY working. Now that its not so busy and I have time to do this. Just to let you in on some hospital lingo - we NEVER say that it's slow or that we have nothing to do. The minute you do - the ER floods. People really get pissed if you say these things. I thought they were all joking at first. Till somebody slapped me on the shoulder once and gave me *the look*. Nope. Not kidding.

Well lets see. This weekend going to Omaha, next weekend Abby's coming up and going to the state fair. The next week - wow - i think nothing. hm. That's unusual. The next 4 weekends are packed after that too. I don't remember what order everything is in. Not that anybody cares. ANYWAY......

My friend Lori has been gone a whole 5 days and I miss her. See, instead of this blog I call Brenda or Lori or Amanda and by the end of my list I have usually spilled every detail of my life out to someone. Lately I have been working too much to talk to anyone. So now its you anonymous surfers out there who get to listen to me babble.

Something I was thinking about the other day - not that it has any real relevance to many people, but in a way has effect on us all. Scientifically speaking - how can a human be used in an experiment. Really. How can you use them in a control group if you can't control them or their environment. How can you tell that they are effected by the variable you induce or by other things in his or her life? I don't understand this. Observing is one thing. You can make observations and educated guesses about them, but to actually experiment on them, I don't know. Pharmaceutical companies do these "experiments" all the time and find "definitive" answers. Or can they only justify this because they have the money and political pull to say so. They are the ones paying for the tests. How about sneaker companies and such. People believe the commercials that say their product is better than others or whatever. That doesn't mean they work for everybody. Who's to say the people who tried them out didn't practice better posture or something because of some other random reason - even if they didn't know they were being tested. I seem to remember this discussion in Gen. Phsyc. but I don't remember what the answer was. Maybe the problem is not that it may not be scientifically impossible to use a human in an experiment and come up with a definitive result. Maybe it's that the general public doesn't care to, well, care. Maybe they like being spoon fed full-of-shit facts. That seems to be a reoccurring trend. Well, anyway. Just one of those things that I randomly ponder from time to time. Thought I'd let you in.

Have a good weekend.

I haven't seen you in a coon's age...

Did you know that raccoons live an average of 5-8 years. Although, there are records of a racoon living to be 21. Just thought I'd let you know :)

Trying again

Trying again to send from my phone!!!! SMILE :)

God, I am tired. Please have them send me home!!!

I was at Grandma's for the weekend with no Internet and I obviously didn't figure out the mobile blogging. I just made an excuse to nobody for not updating my blog daily. Oh well. I guess I was kind of disappointed in myself. I have this HORRIBLE habit of not following through with my brilliant ideas to better myself. Oh, I'll do it for a few weeks. Maybe even a few months, but then I just stop. I don't know why. Fear of failure? Fear of success? I'm really too tired to hash it all out right now. I just don't see why intravenous caffeine is such a bad idea. I could really market that around here. Starbucks! You're missing out!

So I went to the stupid little small town celebration and guess what. It sucked. Just to let you know - I told you so. Ran into the guy who pissed on my tent (long story - I'll explain later) among about 15 other people who make me want to barf and run. Don't get me wrong, I usually am a Love and Forgive kind of girl, but I just don't enjoy being around people from my hometown. The majority are so small-minded, judgemental, and ignorant that it makes me want to scream!!!! I am not the sharpest tool in the shed and I can be ignorantly rude at times, but at least I try. I try to understand other people and learn new things! Oh, I promise not all of my posts will be like this. I need to start posting when I am not tired and growly. And maybe I should skip blogging for a few days to calm down after running into stew (the guy who pissed on my tent). Mean people are such a waste of time. Hating them is too, I realize. I spend way too much time being ticked at that guy.

Too tired to pay attention to typing - try again later.

Night number two - off and running!!!

Wow. So much can happen in just a matter of 5 minutes! I need to learn to calm down and not take things so damned personally!!!! Tonight has been going very well (maybe cause I'm working with a nice doctor tonight!! ;) . I freaked out once over something stupid that was resolved before I even had time to stew about it. I felt like an idoit. Duh. 25 years and I still haven't figured that one out. anyway....

Going to my hometown tomorrow - today - whatever. Another big - small town celebration. Joy. I mostly go cause it's important to my Grandma (she still lives there) and to my godkids. I love watching my little Blaine in the games and contests they have - he's such a cutie!!! (Has a mouth like a sailor - 6 years old! - reminds me of his aunt!!!) I enjoy my family and my roommate's family but there are SOOOOOOO many people at these things. So many people I really never care to see again. Every year I go to this dumb thing and every year I have to make small talk. Like I really care. I'm very torn here. I don't want to go - but I know its important to people I love that I am there. God, I hope they all decide to move - SOON!

Yes - the whole - tomorrow, no I mean today, no wait - thing. Working nights is very confusing. More so to other people. For example - right now it is 3:20A.M. This is my afternoon. When I leave work at 7A.M., I will tell everyone to have a good night. I am still on Friday. I know it's Saturday. I just don't care. Night-shifters all understand this. My Grandma does not. One of these days I am going to call her on my 1A.M. lunch break just to see what she is doing. "Well I waited till after midnight, Grandma!" Midnight is my noon. Noon is my midnight. Brenda doesn't get this either. (More than Grandma, thank God!) Brenda is my roommate by the way.

Well, enough bitching. I am tired and hungry. I need to stop rambling. I might write later if I'm bored.

Have a good evening ;)

First of many.......Hopefully!

Not really sure what to put on this thing. Yep - that's me - a first timer! Can you tell?? ;) I've never gotten into blogging or chatting or other things like that. Myspace is still a new revelation with me, but other blogs have been very inspiring so I thought I'd take a swing at it. I am at work - shhh! - so it might be a short one!

Today was the first glimpse of a bad day in the ER. Well, for me. For the patients - it's almost always a bad day in the ER. LOL. Oh, I crack myself up! ANYWAY...... So I cried and went out to my car and prayed. Then I came in and read a certain blog and felt SOOOO much better!!! Revelation for the day - The way to have a great day is to decide that it is going to be a great day. So that's what I have decided to do - and guess what!!!! These last 2 hours have been great! I am so overusing that word - but I want you to get the point! And I want to read this blog in a week or so and reiterate the point to myself.

Well, better get back to work. Have a great day!!!